It's not the marriage that scares me anymore because I had one of my feelings that it was right and it's not necessarily the turning, but the eternity part that scares me. Everyone seems happy, but what about fifty to hundred years later. I'm not talking about the love part of it, but the living for eternity part. I love him to the depths of my soul, but will that love survive the death and heartache that will be coming soon. What will become of me if I turn.....or if I don't turn? I just don't know.
