THE CORE ELEMENT

I am Nandhini. An ideology entered into me during my struggling childhood days. The ideology was the core source of my thoughts and actions. I followed it with a blind faith on it, believing that it does only good to me. It guided me through a path where I tasted my fruits of successes. But the end of the path is the entrance of hell. Though I tried to divert my path, the destiny is the same. Why is this happening to me?. Will I be tortured and killed? Or will I escape from it?. What is the intent of the core element?